What would it be like to just sit with that icky feeling instead of reaching for the wine opener?

"What would it be like to just sit with that icky feeling instead of reaching for the wine opener?" I asked a client yesterday. 

There was silence on the other side of the zoom screen. 

I relate to not knowing the answer to this question. In fact, it almost seemed unfathomable when I was at my most stuck. How do you sit still with the feelings? Won't they crush me? What if I can't handle it?

"The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit." I remember stumbling across this verse in my Mom's bible after she passed away. It seemed like a nice enough thought- that I wasn't alone- that the grief wasn't going to destroy me- but I chose to numb instead.

And after 2 solid years of numbing (to the day), I decided to touch base with the ultimate source of healing. On March 9, 2020, I looked in the bathroom mirror, hungover, and said, "Jesus, I can't do this anymore."

It was then that I realized my grief wasn't going to crush me because He was near. That there was purpose and hope in all of it- some of which I don't think I'll ever fully understand until I get to heaven.

So, can I encourage you today, babe?

What if instead of opening the cabernet, you talked to God? He can handle the tears and even the screams. (Trust me on this one.) 

What if instead of escaping you opened your Bible? If you have no idea where to start then that's okay. DM me I've got some great studies I've worked through and I'd love to share them with you. 

And if you're still reading this, and you have no idea how to take the very first steps away from numbing and towards healing, I'd love to chat with you. My DMs are always open to you and I'd love to introduce you to one of my communities.