Childless not by choice is a grief many women silently carry — and for some, alcohol becomes the coping mechanism no one sees.
In this powerful episode of Love Life Sober, Maureen Benkovich shares how infertility, miscarriage, and a failed adoption fueled years of binge drinking — and how surrendering to God changed everything.
Maureen is an Alcohol Freedom Coach, author, speaker, and host of the Sober Fit Life podcast. Outwardly disciplined and successful as a fitness professional, she reveals how hidden grief led to the detox-to-retox cycle, depression, and feeling stuck in emotional survival mode.
This conversation is for the woman who feels unseen, exhausted from numbing, and unsure who she is if motherhood doesn’t happen. There is hope. And it begins with surrender.
If you’ve ever thought:
• “Why would God let this happen to me?”
• “I don’t know who I am if I’m not a mom.”
• “Alcohol is the only thing that helps me get through the sadness.”
This episode will meet you right where you are.
🩷 In This Episode We Discuss:
• Infertility grief and being childless not by choice
• How miscarriage and failed adoption impact identity
• The detox-to-retox drinking cycle
• Why alcohol fuels rumination and depression
• Rebuilding identity outside of motherhood
• Why moderation wasn’t the answer
• Faith, surrender, and renewing your mind
• Healing from hidden grief without numbing
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